diff --git a/personal/obsidian_getting_started.md b/personal/obsidian_getting_started.md index a9e5bdf..ac34276 100644 --- a/personal/obsidian_getting_started.md +++ b/personal/obsidian_getting_started.md @@ -1,3 +1,89 @@ +# 2024-06-20 + +## Morning Routine +- [x] Exercise #wellness +- [x] Meditation #wellness +- [ ] Breakfast #personal + +## Daily Goals +- [x] Complete sensory deprivation session #status/completed +- [ ] Review project updates #status/to-do +- [ ] Write article on sensory experiences #status/to-do + +## Sensory Deprivation Experience + +### Session Details +- **Date**: 2024-06-20 +- **Duration**: 90 minutes +- **Location**: Float Tank at Serenity Spa +- **Environment**: Dark, soundproof float tank with Epsom salt solution +- **Time of Day**: 10:00 AM +- **Pre-session Mood**: Anxious, slightly stressed +- **Post-session Mood**: Overwhelmed, confused + +### Pre-session Preparation +- **Physical Preparation**: Light breakfast (smoothie), hydrated well, 30 minutes of yoga +- **Mental Preparation**: 10 minutes of deep breathing exercises, set intention to explore inner thoughts and face any emerging fears + +### Session Journal +- **Initial Thoughts and Feelings**: + - As I settled into the tank, my mind was racing with thoughts about work and personal commitments. The darkness and silence quickly became oppressive, heightening my anxiety. + +- **Physical Sensations**: + - Initially, I noticed a slight tension in my neck and shoulders. As the session progressed, the sensation of weightlessness intensified, creating a disorienting feeling of floating in an abyss. My limbs felt like they were dissolving into the void. + +- **Mental Experiences**: + - About 20 minutes in, my thoughts began to slow down. However, instead of calming, my mind started conjuring unsettling images and scenarios. Childhood fears resurfaced, accompanied by a sense of impending doom. My mind felt like it was unraveling, with fragments of disturbing memories flashing before my eyes. + +- **Visual/Auditory Experiences**: + - In the absence of light and sound, I experienced intense visual hallucinations. I saw grotesque, shifting shapes and faces in the darkness. Faint, eerie whispers echoed in my ears, growing louder and more insistent as time passed. + +- **Time Perception**: + - Time became an indistinguishable blur. Minutes felt like hours, and I lost all sense of how long I had been in the tank. The timelessness was maddening, making me question if I would ever be able to escape. + +- **Challenges and Discomforts**: + - The first 10 minutes were challenging as my mind resisted the sensory deprivation. However, as the session continued, the sense of isolation became unbearable. I felt an overwhelming urge to scream and escape, but I forced myself to endure the experience. + +- **Positive Outcomes**: + - Despite the overwhelming sensations of fear and madness, I managed to stay in the tank for the full duration. The experience provided a raw and unfiltered look into the darkest corners of my mind, revealing deep-seated anxieties and unresolved trauma. + +### Post-session Reflection +- **Immediate Reflections**: + - I stumbled out of the tank feeling dazed and disoriented. The world outside felt surreal, and my sense of reality was warped. I was overwhelmed by the intensity of the experience and struggled to articulate my thoughts. + +- **Changes in Mood/Outlook**: + - My initial sense of calm was replaced with confusion and heightened anxiety. I felt a persistent sense of unease and paranoia, questioning the boundaries of my sanity. + +- **Physical Aftereffects**: + - My muscles felt tense and achy, and I had a lingering sensation of dizziness. The physical discomfort was compounded by the mental strain of the experience. + +- **Mental Aftereffects**: + - Mentally, I felt fragmented and unstable. The hallucinations and eerie whispers lingered in my mind, making it difficult to focus on anything else. I felt an urge to withdraw from social interactions and isolate myself. + +- **Integration into Daily Life**: + - I found it challenging to reintegrate into daily life after the session. The experience left me questioning my perception of reality and struggling to find a sense of normalcy. I decided to take a break from sensory deprivation sessions until I could process and understand the impact it had on my mental health. + +- **Future Adjustments**: + - Moving forward, I plan to approach sensory deprivation with caution, ensuring I have a support system in place and a way to ground myself after each session. I will also seek professional guidance to navigate the psychological effects of such intense experiences. + +## Additional Notes +- Research more about the psychological effects of prolonged sensory deprivation. +- Consider alternative relaxation techniques that are less intense and potentially less destabilizing. + +## End of Day Reflection +- What went well? + - I completed the session despite the overwhelming fear and disorientation. + - The experience provided valuable insights into my mental state and areas that need healing. + +- What could be improved? + - Establish a more gradual approach to sensory deprivation to avoid such intense reactions. + - Incorporate grounding techniques post-session to help reintegrate into daily life more smoothly. + +#daily #personal/journal #sensory-deprivation #mental-health + + +--- + ## Benefits of Using Tags in Obsidian ### 1. Improved Organization